Today I said my final goodbye to a friend. No, he didn’t die. Somewhere along the line he decided to stop being my friend and ghosted me. For a year I tried to get an answer why. What did I do or not do. For a year all I got was emails read and no reply. No idea why I am blocked everywhere except the email. He read all of them, tracked received. Not one was deleted before reading, sometimes more than once . People tell me that if he chose to ghost me and keep me wondering why, knowing my brain works on logic as his, people tell me he wasn’t my friend at all. That brings little comfort to my emotional side of the brain. Because today I lost my friend of 20 years, because today I had to say goodbye to him so I am protected.

Posted by farruska at 2023-07-27 20:28:51 UTC