Jump Back Up July Day 1: I am a natural-born worrier so there is *always* something to keep my brain (usually unnecessarily) occupied. 🤦🏻♀️ I have a proactive mindset though so I’m always keen to resolve any issues I have lingering. 👍🏻👍🏻 Today, my main ‘worry’ is that I have agreed to a WhatsApp chat with a friend from this community. I am not a very outgoing person and have never enjoyed ‘small talk’. I am worried I won’t have anything to say, or that I will appear to be boring, or that she’ll decide she won’t like me as much as she thought she did in our many texts. Due to bullying, I have always struggled to make, and maintain, friendships. At this stage in my life, they almost feel like too much trouble (if that makes sense) and that I should just keep going as I am. I have plenty of friends on online communities, people I have written to for years and people I enjoy talking to at work…I just don’t have any real life friends. And, even though this friendship won’t turn into a ‘going out for tea and cake’ type of thing (she lives far away), I’ve never progressed to face-to-face chat with other online friends. I guess I just feel like the odds are stacked against me. But, I am determined. 💪🏻 So, I am going to jot down some things to talk about, and some questions I want to ask her, just in case my mind goes blank. Photos: 1) the horses on the hill (beyond another wretched building site, 50 yards from my house) 2) the hydrangea is starting to flower 3) I finally found a third T-rex for this group in the bathroom - the knitted one, at the front) 4) Letty investigating my new octopus keyring from the church summer fair (I also got the mouse keyring and a rock in a bag for my oldest friend in Surrey)
Posted by Lindsey1974 at 2023-07-01 12:15:44 UTC