☆day 8 of 90 - a realisation☆ hello lovely people, so the day didn't start off well... woke up in a bad mood, was told that my Dad had been taken into A and E for kidney stones, and my whole day was thrown off almost immediately. spent the first half of the day feeling sorry for myself and spiralling downwards, feeling like my whole week was ruined because it wasn't perfect. wasn't really feeling my workout, but after a shower, and a dose of much needed perspective from YouTube, i realised that if i can persist in self destruction, then i can also persist in self improvement. my thoughts aren't facts, so the scary ones don't need to rent any space there anymore unless they're going to pay their dues. had a lovely evening, feeling much calmer than last night. developed a fool proof night routine for myself: herbal tea and watching a relaxing show, brushing teeth, journalling on here, sometimes reading, 10 min meditation on Headspace, praying, potentially listening to a Sleepcast if i am not sleepy. have a blood test at 0745 tomorrow, and have to do a job interview for a new member of staff too - have some hard but important questions prepared. good night everybody Xx

Posted by bluebirdbubble5 at 2021-03-29 21:04:52 UTC